2002?

It's a kinda rainy Sunday evening. Very quiet. I'm feeling really sad today. I so want to change.
Same ol', same ol'. Last night it was alcohol, today it was sex and food. I'm a sensation junky. I'm going overboard in all directions. This is all I know. What else is there? I need to find out. I'm killing myself, physically and spiritually.
I feel doomed.

I'm not the crazy, angry person I was when I was married, in my 20's. I'm calmer - I've leveled out in a lot of ways. But, in my own quiet way, I'm madder (as in insanity) than anyone I know.

Human = walking contradiction.