Addiction

There is nothing more important to a junky than rationalization.
Now, I'm not trying to come off as William Burroughs or Johnny Thunders or anything - I've never spiked Horse - but, I do have what they call an "addictive personality."
I'm all or nothing. That is no way to live. Great art has often come from that mindset (alas, none from me) but, great misery has also. Often mine.
I'd like to follow the middle path, but something forces me to run off into the woods - or over the cliff (What's over there? I need to know.) Or, just stay at home and watch The Simpsons.
Addiction is a compulsion to push it.